still the un-dark, the unearthly quiet
this quiet beneath the earth, this hollow tomb
seven thousand days and more (twenty times
around the sun, invisible) whispered, withering
a thread of dream-time, grey twining roots
in the grave/rich soil of the world-between-worlds
nurture and decay. endless
still the unending, the ever-still
tears to stone and salt—the weight of all time,
and the weight of the world (every world waits:
a hushed breath from one to the other,
as if remembering the could-have-been;
the shiver/thrill of hand-in-hand) a heart caves in upon itself
an instant, or an eternity. time is/
still the unkept, the filled-with-
it was this final, fleeting thought:
i am too old to die. i am an ancient
shipwreck on the sea floor, an underwater pharoah.
these, my hands—untimely knots
clutching uselessly
at memories
see how i hopeless
she is sleeping as she goes under/she slips without sound
into the waves, dark clouds of blood-in-water. see
how she sinks beneath the waves
all those years
+
if i remember clearly
(and i have no means of forgetting),
the sea-father stood there like a pillar of
salt on the shore as i arrived, un-drowned
having breathed for days in the deep. having
walked all those miles: footsteps in the silt,
sleep comes for me on dark wings
faintly stirring this world-weary;
careful traces on stones at night
of a crisped autumn leaf crackle
dessicated and downtrodden
while in the skies above,
pulsars wink out
and the suns grow dim
empty empires long vacant
amplify, echo the hollowhaunt
these hollow broken—these hallowed halls
strains and swells the sweet-sorrowful,
soulless, unbodied, undying
i slept for four and twenty thousand years
when i awoke, the world
had turned to dust
when i awoke,
the world had loved and moved on
and all this time, the undying
these few bright points wavering
some distant seashore—
some quicksilver sea
time is an unruly tyrant
that every legacy is undone,
that every stronghold is torn asunder
here at the end: a horizon of
white ash and bone
and ice that sublimates
into vapour
and i am brought to the ground,
atrophied and anemic
my fragile body, skin and blood
and the anguish which passeth all understanding,
the keening cry of my innermost,
for all things lost—not things,
but souls and s
to the angel of fallen winds, sovereign of the house of deneb:
for all the undying intake of breath
for the delicate ruin of epochs
over the slow stretch of time, aed eidon
the loss was absolute
forgive me those trespasses, ancient
forgive me for having simply wept, facedown
in echoed times and echoed spaces
in deepnight when (between the stars)
our bodies would freeze and fall as snow
of the annunaki shiver-form
at heaven's gates; the doors of aidon
and we wait for that holy light to warm our sails
here you find me, ice and blood
and the sleeping strings of potential energy
ice and cold rain. heavenly god,
i have waite